' He walked toward the phone.
'Marino,' I said. 'Leave Benton out of this.'
He walked over to the fire and sat on the sandstone hearth instead. He put his head in his hands, and when he looked up at me his face was exhausted. 'You know how I'll feel if something happens to you?'
'Not very good,' I said, ill at ease.
'It will kill me. It will, I swear.'
'You're getting maudlin.'
'I don't know what that word means. But I do know Gault's going to have to waste my ass first, you hear me?' He stared intensely at me.
I looked away. I felt the blood rise to my cheeks.
'You know, you can get whacked like anybody else. Like Eddie, like Susan, like Jane, like Jimmy Davila. Gault's fixed on you, goddam it. And he's probably the worst killer in this friggin' century.' He paused, watching me. 'Are you listening?'
I lifted my eyes to his. 'Yes,' I said. 'I'm listening. I'm hearing every word.'
'You got to leave for Lucy's sake, too. She can't come see you here ever. And if something happens to you, just what do you think is going to happen to her?'
I shut my eyes. I loved my home. I had worked so hard for it. I had labored intensely and tried to be a good businesswoman. What Wesley had predicted was happening. Protection was to be at the expense of who I was and all that I had.
'So I'm supposed to move somewhere and spend my savings?' I asked. 'I'm supposed to just give all of this up?' I swept my hand around the room. 'I'm supposed to give that monster that much power?'
'You can't drive your ride, either,' he went on, thinking aloud. 'You got to drive something he won't recognize. You can take my truck, if you want.'
'Hell no,' I said.
Marino looked hurt. 'It's a big thing for me to let someone use my truck. I never let anybody.'
'That's not it. I want my life. I want to feel Lucy is safe. I want to live in my house and drive my car.'
He got up and brought me his handkerchief.
'I'm not crying,' I said.
'You're about to.'
'No, I'm not.'
'You want a drink?' he asked.
'Scotch.'
'I think I'll have a little bourbon.'
'You can't. You're driving.'
'No, I'm not,' he said as he stepped behind the bar. 'I'm camping on your couch.'
Close to midnight, I carried in a pillow and blanket and helped him get settled. He could have slept in a guest room, but he wanted to be right where he was with the fire turned low.
I retreated upstairs and read until my eyes would no longer focus. I was grateful Marino was in my house. I did not know when I had ever been this frightened. So far Gault had always gotten his way.
So far he had not failed in a single evil task he had set out to accomplish. If he wanted me to die, I had no confidence I could evade him. If he wanted Lucy to die, I believed that would happen, too.
It was the latter I feared most. I had seen his work. I knew what he did. I could diagram every piece of bone and ragged excision of skin. I looked at the black metal nine-millimeter pistol on the table by my bed, and I wondered what I always did. Would I reach for it in time? Would I save my life or someone else? As I surveyed my bedroom and adjoining study, I knew Marino was right. I could not stay here alone, I drifted to sleep pondering this and had a disturbing dream. A figure with a long dark robe and a face like a white balloon was smiling insipidly at me from an antique mirror. Every time I passed the mirror the figure in it was watching with its chilly smile. It was both dead and alive and seemed to have no gender. |